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He grabs for the bottle, his mind starving for cheap sugar, the thought to pour down the cold, sweet liquid and the effect it will have on his brain when the sugar buzz sets in is almost as good as the real thing.

Cold plastic bottle in hand, condensation forming where his hand isn’t touching, he walks to the cashier, part of him already wants to twist open the bottle and take a deep, refreshing, sip, but holding off on it is part of the process.

He plunks the bottle down on the counter top, a softened “thud” confirms that the bottle has made contact with the glass material of the counter. For a moment he is disappointed, he still remembers the “cling” that the old glass bottles made. The Cashier turns the bottle, scans the barcode, the computer beeps in acknowledgment, numbers scroll by on the green LCD to show the final sum: $1.67 including deposit.

He fumbles in his pocket and produces a shiny, new two dollar coin, he hands it to the cashier who does not even seem to notice him, despite taking his money. A few seconds later he is handed the receipt and change with a “Thank you, come again.” His mind must be playing tricks, he thinks he is hearing Apu saying these words, but the kid behind the counter is clearly not east indian. He shakes his head to clear it, grabs the bottle and heads for the door.

Waiting, still waiting. One step, two steps….. The doors open with a swishing sound. He’s outside. He stands in the sun for a second, then opens the bottle. He hears the plastic rip, the CO2 escape with a hiss. He tears the bottle cap free of the little plastic piece that catches it.

He raises the bottle to his mouth, take a gulp, and the moment the liquid hits his tongue he knows something is wrong. He swallows, takes another slower sip.

“This doesn’t taste right” he thinks. He swallows it slowly, raises the bottle to his eyes and sees in big large letters:

“Sugar Free”

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Blue

“Blue”

by Michael Kalus
© 2005 Michael Kalus

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“What do you think?” Paul asked me. I did take a moment to come back from the place I just was, where my mind had drifted off to while my eyes were fixed on “It”.

I tried to concentrate on what Paul was saying and once again tried to focus on It in front of me. The image was just one thing: Blue. IN fact you could have said it was the perfect blue. The definition of “blueness” and I don’t mean the feeling.

I took a deep breath and focussed on Paul’s face, trying to make eye contact. I finally said: “It is…. blue”. I wanted to say a lot more than that but I just couldn’t put words to the things that were going through my mind. Paul slightly tilted his head, then smiled only to start laughing a moment later.

At first I thought he was laughing at me, for my lack of stating more the the (obviousl) clear obvious. But after a moment I realized it was an amused laughter, not a mean, degrading one. The one a teacher might give a student who said something so extremely stupid that all one could do was laugh. My insecurity that had filled me for a moment retreated back in the dark hole where I tried to keep it, together with all the other nightmares and scars that live gives you over the course of the years.

After a few more moments he calmed down and looked me straight into the eyes. Measuring. Probing.

“This…. was a very good way of putting it.” Paul said. “In fact, that is pretty much the only thing I had to say as well when It was first shown to me. Isn’t it funny, how something as simple as a blue picture can elude our description. How it takes us, our minds and bends them, just by being and being looked at?”

He paused for a moment, his gaze seemed to turn inward as if he was inspecting his own inner workings.

I wanted to say something, I could feel that something inside me had been stirred but I couldn’t quite put a finger on it. Paul seemed to be done with his inner inspection. I saw there was a tear forming in his eye. He also noticed it and quickly blinked it away, turned his gaze down to his hands which were cupping his cup of ceylon tea that was slowly cooling off. The steam was hardly visible anymore.
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Der Selbstmord

Zwielicht, das ist alles was den Raum erhellt. Es ist nicht wirklich Dunkel aber auch nicht richtig Hell. Schatten dominieren das Zimmer und der blasse Lichtstrahl, der von der Strassenlaterne durch die zugezogenen Vorhnge in das Zimmer vordringt, tut wenig, um den Raum zu erhellen.

Meine Augen werden sich daran gewhnen, es ist nur eine Frage der Zeit. Ich weiss das, aber bis dahin wird Weiss zu Grau und alles verschwimmt mit einander zu einer einheitlichen, kaum zu unterscheidenden Suppe. Farben existieren nicht mehr.
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Eye To Eye

Imagine a bar. You know the kind. The smoky one, the one every Film Noir has. The place you always admired. Though even if you knew where it was you would not dare to go there. It is not you, at least not the public you.

Now look at the dark corners in this place. In one of them, you see two men sitting there. One seems to be in his mid forties, he is wearing a suit, it looks rather expensive and stylish and even though he seems to be out of place, he appears calm, almost like this is his place. He is freshly shaven and has a glass of single malt Scotch in front of him, straight no ice. His hair is short and his eyes identify him as an intelligent person.
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Vultures

A cross. I haven’t seen it before even though I have spent the past three weeks in this stinking truck. There is a little silver cross hanging from the mirror. It is sort of surreal, I fixate on the cross and the world outside seems to vanish in a blur, the strobe lights and everything, nothing seems to matter besides the cross.

My name is Mark McCallen, but my friends tend to call me M&M. I am a freelance writer but the honesty of that statement depends in large parts of with whom you are talking. In my career I have written for cheap porno magazines, newspapers, websites and whoever else is willing to hand me some money for my writing. I also work in bars and restaurants. More than once I was living off of cup noodles.
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Das Jngste Gericht

Irgendwie kann ich mich nicht mehr so genau erinnern was
in der Nacht vorher passiert war. Ich weiß noch das ich irgendwo
in einer Kneipe saß und mir mit ein paar Kumpel ein paar Biere
hinter die Binde gegossen habe, schemenhaft kann ich mich auch noch
daran erinnern das irgendso ein Wanderprediger an unseren Tisch kam und
was von wegen Todsünde und ewiger Verdammnis gefaselt hatte. Wir
hatten alle nur gelacht und einer meinte noch er würde sich schon
darauf freuen ihn am Kreuze hängen zu sehen….

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Kindergarten of Hell: From Hell (Pilot Episode)

Hell is a hellish place. It’s hot, it stinks after sulfur and all in all everybody who is there would tell you that they would rather be someplace else. Preferably at a Lake side with a cold beer and some friends but if that would not be possible they wouldn’t mind just being back at the office at their boring job they hated for a very long time and despise to go to every day (well, at least while they were still alive, had a body and were able to go to work).

Who would think that anybody could actually like this? Certainly not you and quite frankly even I would have a hard time thinking of someone who would actually go there whisteling and having a jolly time. But then neither you nor I are a demon or, even more intimidating, the lord of hell himself. As life goes there is more to it than what is apparent to either you or me. In this case it is the relization that demons have to come from somewhere, yes indeed, they are not all fallen angels (and even if, they would have to come form somewhere too, wouldn’t they?). So there exists something in this hellish place that you would not have deemed possible. It is the one thing that apparantly is the reason for mankind to exist: Kids.
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Darkness

Darkness is comforting.
Darkness can give you protection.
Darkness can hide the world from you.
Darkness changes your perception.
Darkness is hiding you.
Darkness allows you to live unnoticed.
Darkness can hide all the ugliness in you.
Darkness can be frightening.

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Panik

Beep beep beep beep. Scheisse, was ist das fuer ein Geraeusch? Alarm? ALARM? Oh mein Gott, die Moslems greifen an!!! Ich roll mich aus dem Bett, unter das Bett und schuetze meinen Kopf mit meinen Haenden..
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Sexdrive

Brian was 34 years old, single and by his own account average looking. He was single, never married and to the best of his knowledge never fathered anyone (but who could know for certain?). He also never had any sexual transmitted deseases as far as he could tell, but then again, who could tell nowadays?

It was Saturday night, and like any single guy he tried to score, it is this one thing that drives every living thing on this planet. The urge to reproduce and to create offspring, to propangate the own DNA and dominate. He was aware this urge, he had seen a show once on Discovery Channel about Gorillas and their society of the strongest male. He had wished at that point that he could be the pack leader in one of those Gorilla families.
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